In light of the topic on love.
There is a friend that kind of likes me. He is super irritating. Knowing that I am from SJC, he was complaining that how I behave like a SJC-ians. Wuah, just like a typical SJC-ians. Considering my high level of tolerance, this is a little irritating.
I invited Richie for 4th sat mass and was sitting beside me. I guess that person felt really werid. When Richie made a phone call, he asked if he could sit beside me. He sat in a strange position - as though he wanted to ask me something and maybe not, as he looked strangely at Richie.
I met a few common friends and realised that the guy is actually 6 years my junior. *cough* He is only 19 years old and never done NS yet. Wow! ... I felt really bad. All the while I thought that he was the same age as me and behavior so childishly was just a little irritating.
Now, knowing that he is so much younger, I felt so bad for always commenting that he is so irritating. It must be quite strange to like a girl that is so much older and just don't have the guts to say anything at all. That day was such an insight. Thinking about all the should I do this or not ... now, it puts things into a different perspective of what life is for another person.
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about whether to join amplify or st jude's. All the bad blood in st judes *tiring* ... I seriously learn a lot from amplify cuz everyone is commited to the group. Listening to the CD before hand and trying to reach the best ... I could sense improvement - walking out of the comfort zone esp when i played a different mass order.
In st jude's, I am just taken for granted all the time.
amplify or st jude's ??personal growth + space + friendship ....??
Richie said something really true -
at the end of the day,
which is the group would benefit more from my service..?
At the end,
what really matters the most?
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